Day Six: When God Adjusted “my” Plan
When God called me to adopt, it was a very specific call. We were specifically called to place our dossier in Haiti and wait for a child. Even though I was quite sure of that, my husband and I researched various countries because Haiti had only recently opened for adoption again.
When we began looking into adopting, the country was still recovering from the devastating earthquake at that time. We prayed. We tried to make absolutely sure that we had heard Him right. We submitted our dossier to Haiti in search of a little girl to bring into our family.
We had a choice of 4 orphanages that our adoption agency worked with to choose from at the time. We prayed and again very clearly we knew where He wanted us to be. Everything seemed to be falling into place.
We waited and waited and waited some more. Much longer than we had planned. Longer than our family and friends had planned. Then the changes started happening.
Our proposed matched child was growing older and was getting ready to exceed the age noted on our paperwork, so we changed the age we would accept.
Then that match did not work out, they were unable to get her paperwork straightened out.
We were moved from our orphanage that we had picked out in the beginning of our journey, to a general pool where our child could come from anywhere in Haiti.
Then as I talked things over with our adoption coordinator, we realized that part of our paperwork said we wanted a little girl and part of it said either gender.
My heart began to be afraid at first and to doubt. But I just couldn’t. I couldn’t doubt a God who had brought us this far.
He had picked me up after many stumbles time and time again. He taught me to be still. He shielded me from the enemy’s flaming arrows and hateful words. He has taught me that no matter what happens He is still good.
He called us to do this and although He has since changed every variable at this point other than our country, I trust Him.
I have changed so much over the years because I have let Him change me. If this situation had happened years ago, I would have fought Him and been hurt and angry.
Now I know that it is best to step back and let Him work.
I keep my eyes searching for the things He is doing around me. ALL the things, not just pertaining to the adoption. He is working all around me and I try my hardest (usually) to let Him work through me. He gives me peace that is beyond anything that I can describe and I just cannot even understand how it is there, but it is.
I breathe it in deep. I believe He is using this time to grow me more into what He needs me to be to fulfill my purpose.
Verses of the Day:
Truly my soul silently waits for God; from Him comes my salvation. Psalm 62:1 (NIV)
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 (NIV)